The Rookie and I

 

 So I was talking to this rookie and asked him,"As a guy. what would he think about this guy ." 

It was an afterthought ..

I told him, I wrote this guy a poem, stating that I was "suicidal" ..then he said, " you know by you telling me that I'm obligated to take you in if ever...

I started laughing out loud..I told him...no it was a test..and he looked at me and smiled..

I said, the "guy" actually asked me (in text) if he should call a police...lol

then the rookie replied, "why set him up for failure?" I thought to myself..how is that a failure? I want  to know if he will do the opposite of what I think he will do? which he did...hahaha

I told the rookie,..."noooo....I just really genuinely want to know how he will "react". then I proceeded to say, "he reacted with a cold response stating I should go to theraphy". omg...LOL

I told the rookie..

I wanted to hear a kind response or caring response from the guy, but he didn't. He actually kinda "threaten" me and was uncomfortable to hear my (fake) plea.

The rookie said, "he's not a good guy, by the way you told me how he reacted." and I said, "I kinda figured that out by the couple or more "red flags" from before.

I told the rookie, all my family and friends said I should "run!!" then he replied, "You should."

This was a honest to goodness convo I had with this rookie a couple of days ago. He was a kid, as old as my youngest son. But , he had or seemed to have a " good heart". And I felt grateful to have met someone like him. It woke me up..why am I dealing with a "toxic person" when there are a lot of Kind hearted, genuine people out there.

I am truly grateful, I wish I could meet more kind, honest, genuine people like me out there.

I think I've manifested that "mean, wicked, narcissist " guy because I was gullible and still naive. I've seen 3 red flags and I kept giving him chances.

But I learned from this..I had become Forgiving and loving..

I forgive his cold, dark heart..and I will send him love..maybe he will find someone who will love his dark heart and they live happily ever after...lol..

Btw, there was more interesting convos with the rookie ..soon to write down.