Mi amore way

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 Horatio is someone I do not care for..he does not fit my ideals.

I would try and I would think maybe I could settle..he loves me so.

but I am far too removed from this plane of existence that I could not tolerate to pretend anymore. I had done that a long time ago..try to fit a round peg in a square one. I feel bad but it is what it is..nothing good can come from this.

And I was his Horatio..

Deep inside I know we do not belong..


to be continued...have to wake up early tomorrow..ugh


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