Walk with me this way..

  the song goes.. I’m not inlove so dont forget it.. its just a silly phase  I'm going through I and just because I call you up, don't get me wrong.. don't think you've got it made.. I like to see you, but then again..that doesn't mean you mean that much to me So If I call you, don't make a fuss..Don't tell your friends about the two of us... I think that freaking song is "narcissistic"..lol it's a game some people play...I refuse to play that game..Either I like you and I go for you or I don't like you and I leave you alone..lol For one thing, I don't like playing with other people's feelings..because I don't want them to play with mine. There was this guy that really liked me,,,a lot..but he was just not my type at all..He was around 6'8ft..I like that he was tall but he wasn't really my type over all. So, I would just try to avoid him or sometimes tell him bluntly that I am not interested but he kept trying. When I wa...

  I am actually grateful for the lessons in learning to be “ more patient” I didnt know that child was such a freaking nightmare.. as I look back now im close to tears for surviving that ordeal.. ive never met an almost 2 yeasr old for being so bratty and spoiled plus she liked to hit , pinch ,bite and cry, scream when she doesnt get what she wants. The mother doesnt discipline her at all. She is the most notoroius kid ever, the mom would say.. she doesnt know if thats wrong.. then how can she know how to put her clothes, shoes on? act like shes crying if you say no to her. Imagine 4 days of this? arrgghh..Thats why .. Thank you Lord.. next time no more bratty kids.. ugh.. Then I took my camera with me hoping Id get a great landscape.. im all spent after dealing with the brat.. and theres nothing there just hills and countryside..wtf.. .. no more countryside again. Although, I pat myself on the back for holding my tongue.. I didnt want to hurt the mom’s feelings by telling her that...

For some reason , provincial locations seems really familiar to me.. whether its in Italy, outside of Paris, or Westchester , NY… I really dont like this province looking place.. of course its outside Paris.. mext tome ill refuse to go work outside Paris..or maybe its just the people here.. i dont lnow but im bored.. i thought i could explore but looks nowhere to go.. ugh

I miss my constant companion before.. my Abby🐾❤️😭😊   Last night was great..   it was just the 6 of us.. I think I felt I belonged there with them. I knew Ate Lorna and Margo.. the other 3 felt like I’ve  known them before. I’ve  been feeling like an “ outsider”.. well of course because all those Events I worked in.. I was hired ..so of course .. Im in the middle of these events but not in them. Or I was just busy running away from my grief.. I miss my Dongie..Ive nobody special to share my day with.. but its ok.. I know he is with me everyday…

 It should have been filipino way..lol Last night my Ate Lorna texted me to invite to dinner with her daughter Margo. We went out the other day with thriftshopping. Margo I meant.  My anti social behavior comes out before going to ate lorna. Or maybe its anxiety since ive not gone to gettogethers lately. I didnt want to go and wanted to stay home since I know ill be working out of Paris in the next few days. But I went anyway because they’ve been good to me.  It was a good thing I went since it was great hanging out with other people once in awhile. We did Karaoke. We had a great time singing along. Margo is such a sweet child I hope she doesnt change. Ive met 2 of ate lorna’s employees who came along amd Margo’s friend. All in all it was a great evening , Im glad I went. 

The long way to walk to Ikea... Walked on the other side of Champs Elysse Ave went to Ikea City here in Paris. I went there 2 times already to get some basic necessities. Last time I bought pillows, I forgot the others but yesterday I went to get some utensils...Ate Josie doesnt have much stuffs..I think she rather send her stuffs to the philippines than live comfortably..or shes just content...If this was my flat..I would have decorated and throw away a lot of things..lol..maybe when I get back on Aug and shes in Greece..I'll do an overhaul of this place..lol   I hope she won't get angry lest appreciate it..so far she liked that stand I did for her toiletries. Anyway, I was so upset yesterday that my regular path was closed since the Olympics is near that area. The soldiers told me to go back and take another walking route...ugh..I really dont like all these bruhaha about the Olympics I should be grateful I'm witnessing it although you need 'expensive" tickets to ...

 Good morning.. been waking up early here.. its good I guess , it makes you feel time is longer although the days gets faster.. before you know it.. its sunday again.. its only Tuesday but.. So this weekend ,finally went to StMichel. we left at 12am I think then after 2 per stops. lol.. we got to St Michel around 6 am.. i got out of the bus while everyone was still resting or sleeping and the organizers of the bus tour was making breakfast. I saw a glimpse of it from afar.. and I was getting excited. I wanted a sunrise photo but the sun was rising beside it.. a drone would have caught a better view.. i wish i’d brought my drone with me..😔 Then we took a tram to go and it was just there infront of me.. wow.. talk about  an almost dream realized from 2022.. it was a long story what happened back then , i think i had closure when i finally saw st michel.. lol so many stairs though..lol it is how you would  think it might be.. i didn’t think how it might be so i was surprise...

I kinda feel bad though..I'm here all cooped up inside when I could be outside having fun discovering more things around one of the most popular cities on planet earth, Paris. There are more time to venture here..I've been here 4 times before so I've been to most of the tourist spots..but I don't care about those..I want to see the behind the scenes or mostly "street photography" now. I couldn't post much the photos of the kids im babysitting because I respect their privacy. I'll try to venture next week . since I have 4 days off before I go out of Paris. Tommorrow is St Michel..finally...after 2022 failed attempt to go I would finally go . Went to Jardin Acclimation in Paris yesterday with Gut.. ill miss that boy.. we had a lot of fun.. im glad we went early bec before 12 everyone started coming.. groups of small kids..we were too early at 9:30 am..

I do not know why I am obsess with my weight. Ive never been comfortable in my own skin I guess. When I was growing up I tried not to be one of them (my family) they were overweight. I tried to not look like them. Now, even if I do lose weight Im still not comfortable. I think it is about time to accept it. although I still need to lose another 20. I do not like to see how my body looks in the mirror. Ive started walking two weeks ago but I had changed since when I started working. I thought I walk 30 minutes in the morning and another 30 mins going home. Anyway, this friday is my last day with them. I vow to really try to exercise more next week. I'm excited about this weekend though. Also Im happy that I am done with love sickness..lol.I should stop watching those damn Romcoms...lol.. I want to start using my Canon again.

  Like I said , I didnt expect to shoot some fireworks here in Paris.. it was a nice surprise..well…  It was really hard to get around that night because most of the streets are closed off.. mostly around Trocadero since thats where the Eiffel Tower is. I just went and followed the crowd.. but then I sneaked im with some girls who lived where I shot the fireworks.  I used my resourcefulness.. lol.. I was walking past then something told me to look at my right. It was by the moroccan embassy.. the gate was closed but when some residents went in i asked if I could go in with them by the parking lot.. they were nice and lets me in.  Ive befriended some girls there with their dad who seemed like a professional photographer bec he had his tripod there. It was a blessing in disguise every time I get lost. lol The fireworks were spectacular.. I did my best.. always I need videos and not just photos. Tje firework started late but it was worth it.. Im just thankful instead of...

  I didnt put “ Bastille day” since they dont really say that.. so it was yesterday and it looked awesome except there was a lot of smoke everywhere. It still was exciting since it was my very first Bastille day .. Next year.. Ive to start early so I can get a better seat.. but I think I already had an Awesome location this year.. A lot of streets near trocadero was close.. so I just followed where the crowd was going.. I ended up in Passy where I got lost the other day.. it was a good surprise. I was walking past this gate when something told me to look right.. and voila’ there it was a perfect location to take photos of the Eiffel Tower and fireworks. I always believe that Dongie is my guardian angel now and watched over me.. it calms me down and makes me feel i’m not alone even if I miss him.. most of the time when i’m in France ,I’d facetime with him and Abby.. i really miss him..😔😭 But I am grateful he’s watching over me and our kids. Bastille day was an experience.. haven’t...

People are just there sometimes in your life.. and sometimes you are in theirs.. thru the years i’ve met so many people already.. like that commencement event in NSU.. by itself 8K in that whole week. Then when I was back home I remember my family had a lot of festivities. I’m grateful I grew up like that bec now I don’t need parties.. lol..then I remembered my grandfather ran for President in the 80’s and we went campaigning everywhere. I was somewhat sheltered in a sense that I only socialized much with our clan.. but it was good since we still were “ private” even if my family was political. My dad was also always in the local news in the 90’s bec of his position in the military. When we go to his workplace lots of people to meet. Then i almost forgot our family Medical center at the time.. all those employees I grew up with, the annual christmas parties.. also my grandfather’s American Legion conferences at our compound and in our hometown .whew.. And after all is said and done.. t...

 I met Margo today by Place de Clichy..I took the Metro Linye 2 which dropped me off after 5 stops directly to the stores. She took her viber bike..  We had a lot of fun shopping.. she’s Josh’s age.. First time we shopped together was when I came here in 2022.. then in 2023 , we didn’t have time since I had to go home right away. So this year.. it seemed like we did not see each other after 2 years. she’s so kind and humble like her mom. I’ve asked her if she can model for me the week after next week.. that’ll be cool!!she’s not a model but might as well be.Hopefully our shoot would happen.. my first model since i settled here , if ever.

 I gotta stop watching videos of Abby and I and Florida.. Im missing home already and it had only been 3 weeks.. arghh.. but Florida wont be home anymore when I get back to the US someday.. I wonder when that’ll be..maybe when Ive toured “ all” of Europe.. God.. life is really unpredictable this second phase of life.. it makes you appreciate more each day you wake up.. Ill try my very best Lord..Just lead me Lord..

So yesterday.. I opted to walk home than take the Metro with Perlie and the kids. I saw the Eiffel Tower ahead and I thought how far could it be.. im like 10 minutes from Trocadeo.. and off I went.. it was a great surprise to walk by Passy district.. Then I saw this stairs and I assume you can see the Eiffel up there so I went up.. much to my surprise it looked Awesome.. like a jewel i found along the streets.. great location indeed and I found it all by myself😊😄🇫🇷

 Yesterday it was fun even if we almost got lost in the Metro.. I let the girl be our leader per se.. since she lives around there and had been to Jardins Ranelagh . It was interesting .. i think the last time i saw a puppet show was when my kids were that age.. I think in Disney .. lol But i know this is a french tradition that’s their entertainment for hundreds of years for children. I did not understand what the puppets was saying..😜😆.. but the kids enjoyed .. so that’s all that mattered..  Then the other sitter took them home and off I went to explore.. I saw the Eiffel infront of us but I didn’t know it was almost 2 miles away!! Thanks to my music.. i’ve endured the long walk… plus I got surprised places .. i vow to go back with my camera instead of iphone.. although the iphone took decent photos.. it was like my Canon Rebel T1i quality .. Here are some photos.. maybe i’ll extend it to another page bec it was a lot..

 I am not really.. just the title 😆🤣🇫🇷😜 Going to a marionette play today with the kids.. we’re taking the Metro… omggggg.. I really miss driving .. 😭😟 It’ll be an experience today.. let’s wait and see.. 

  I dove a hundred thousand feet deep to the abyss  ,  just to reach you.. But then my ego abandoned me to deal with this idiocy. You’re on your own Angulus.. You do not listen so now “ perfero”..  it told me. Like guitar strings that curled after it broke.. respexit by yourself. Must you gamble your dignity ? You knew he was unreacheable yet you persevered. Tapping at my soul, I groveled ..  He did not respond and ignored me.. Give up now Angulus.. no need to hope—  it is without fail.. that dismissive attitude he paid you.. Ad movere Angulus,  ad movere

 How time flies.. it had been 3 days.. before younknew it’ll be done soon.. Its nice to walk each morning thiugh like an exercise.. took photos along the way of Random people .. mostly street photography... ill share it here.. im into B&W for the meantime..