not inlove way

 the song goes..

I’m not inlove so dont forget it.. its just a silly phase  I'm going throughI

and just because I call you up, don't get me wrong..

don't think you've got it made..

I like to see you, but then again..that doesn't mean you mean that much to me

So If I call you, don't make a fuss..Don't tell your friends about the two of us...

I think that freaking song is "narcissistic"..lol

it's a game some people play...I refuse to play that game..Either I like you and I go for you or I don't like you and I leave you alone..lol

For one thing, I don't like playing with other people's feelings..because I don't want them to play with mine.

There was this guy that really liked me,,,a lot..but he was just not my type at all..He was around 6'8ft..I like that he was tall but he wasn't really my type over all. So, I would just try to avoid him or sometimes tell him bluntly that I am not interested but he kept trying. When I was younger I would feel bad for the person and maybe give him a chance..but now that im older and hopefully wiser..I try to just be nice  and tell the person to find someone else..if  he kept insisting..I'd just block him on my phone...I really am not a mean person.

That song was in a movie I was watching a minute ago in Netflix..and everytime I hear that song..I remember that guy.. I hope he does find the woman for him. .. Anyway, it is a good song...maybe a song for my obssession..hahaha...I truly miss him..but I know I can't love him either because I know deep inside I don't like his personality..he was charming, Intelligent,, has a great job, but that doesn't impress me..well the intelligence does but not his overall character. He knows I like him more than he liked me...plus Ive never met anyone who had no empathy or compassion to others. Thats a no no …Oh well.. Life goes on..

I am rambling now...hahaha.

I'm alone because my Ate Josie is in Greece. Its good to have the whole place to myself ..but I miss her. I like our late conversations because she always comes home late from her work. We often laugh out loud when I tell her jokes. Anyway, I will work on my diet and exercise while she's not here. I'll try to make this place nicer too..