Muni muni (thinking in filipino) way

 As she sat there by the Eiffel Tower..across on the other side by the seine river. She thought to herself, "You’re just here only for two months ,are you giving up Angel?"

For one month I was out of job because there's no work in Aug..most families go outside of Paris. Again I thought, "what is here for me?"

I do not want to be negative..I know I had been praying and asking my guardian angels to help me for I felt helpless and going to be homeless..

The woman I'm rooming with has a complicated relationship with her adopted daughter who is coming back outside Paris and she doesn't want her back,,but she doesn't want me in the room with her either.

I was prepared to live temporarily in that room..I was thinking I am just starting over, this is just a stepping stone. well..my first room. 

I wonder how the other people survived here. Well, I remember I survived in New York all by myself for 5 years. I had a job then and my boss actually liked me because I'm a hard worker and trusted me too. He was an American Syrian Jew named Stevie...I kinda miss him..those were the days..argghh...why do we miss those days.

I remember working with Joey, my bestie at the time..we worked together from 8-8pm monday to saturday. I worked as a cashier in a camera store. He was an Israeli..I couldn't get along with him in the beginning because he talked like he was upset all the time.. we were in our 20's. so I was still naive and not as street smart.

My best memories with him was when I was 8 months pregnant, we went out to a restaurant to get dinner with his gf Jessica (also filipina) and my Dongie. We were having so much fun...making fun of Stevie behind his back. lol.. I think I framed that in my mind so I wouldn't forget it. It was so much fun going out with them . He was our bestman in our wedding. It would have been great if we had kept in contact. I saw in Facebook that they're still together. He finally married her after all these years. She had a son named Jeffrey and he's 5 years older than my son Josh.

Oh memories...Light the corners of our minds.. So here I am again..Single, alone and in a new city. I opted to go here because I wanted to travel Europe since im not that old yet..lol..

I would love to have a travel book of all my adventures,

Although if i may say...last weekend..I wasn't impressed with Cannes, didnt really get to see Nice because I wanted to see Menton instead..but I liked Monte CArlo a lot. We stopped by Grasse but I was too exhausted to get off the bus to take some photos..it kinda looked like a little Menton I think.

So this dilemma is springing on me..

Do I want to go back if I can't get a job? or do I stay and try to toughen it out...I could get a job in San Francisco anytime..

I'll leave it into God's hands..He will show me the way...I have great faith in my guardian angels...I realized now truly..if it's not for me..it will reveal itself..