Aug 30..TED X way

 I opened youtube and instantly typed.."What is your purpose in life?

Here I go again..

I've been feeling lost lately..it is nice not to be working..ha ha..but then I need money to function..lol   

I was thinking, maybe God just wants me to rest right now..I've been working like a dog these past few years...I liked working though, it's a good distraction from my worry wart mind. Plus I like to think I am helping when I am working. Like when I was doing Events , I was helping with preparing the banquet and learning a different skill at the same time. 

I think if I had pursued my original plan as a "theraphist" or psychologist..I would have a "career"..I've been meaning to be a nurse, but somehow one way or the other it gets hindered. 

So now, I'm a jane of all trades. I'm mostly a photographer though  because that is my passion. I like to take other people's memories for them thru photographs. 

Now, I'm here in Europe..I am not as interested as traveling it anymore. I see that they are all the same (maybe). It's very interesting if you are a "history buff".

Anyway...I get weird thoughts when I am not positive. 

I need to be more joyful and grateful for everyday.

The other week, I kept seeing people in "wheelchairs" everywhere here in Paris...duhhh..it's ParaOlympics games this coming weeks.

I know, I know, we shouldn't compare ourselves..but...if they are able to function ...why couldn't I? I could walk around and be free to go wherever..

but then again..

I know I need to be patient..