SAD way

 I'm feeling kinda weird sad because of the rain here in Paris. But that's not new anyway, when we lived in Ohio for 5 years I would get that SAD syndrome. It's called Seasonal Affective Disorder, its a type of depression that happens during a certain season of the year. I was luckier then because I had Dongie to be there for me. He was Awesome in making me feel comfortable about being depressed during those season, I wish I could find someone like that who would take me as I am. But it is unlikely since it will be one in a million to find such "kindred spirit" anymore.

Obviously in Florida it never happened because it's Sunshine there the whole year thru.,,but im not ready to go back there if ever. Alyssa is there but I just want to leave that behind. Maybe California with Mae,Char and Abby would be better. Which reminds me, I need to save as much as I can here if I want to go back there,but I don't know ..I want to give this European expedition a couple more years.

But, as always..I'm an optimist..maybe if I go out later I'll get a better rainy day photos of Paris. I haven't done that yet. I will later.

I am also learning, in just 2 and a half months how people are here. I guess it had to do with being an empath. At first I did not want to admit that the french could be rude..there are some ive encountered but not a lot. A lot of nice french people there too. I guess I would not be able to integrate myself or learn more about the culture until I spend a few more months.