Hard way

just outside last night

 First morning was harder than I thought.. I need to find a better way for her.. but her legs contracts and her butt just hangs and she became heavier because of the insinuation of gravity .. not funny at all..

I almost got her to sit in the wheelchair but we both fell.. luckily in slow motion..lol..then I had to call their friend Frank upstairs to help me get her off the floor.

I almost got her but for some reason she stiffened and started to clung tighter that’s why we fell.

Edna warned me that she would do that.. I think it’s just an involuntary something .. she has a bit of Parkinson’s.

Then after lunch.. I got her to go on the bed but her butt kept trying to go the other way.. I guess I’m really strong  after all.. I need to go to the gym..and try to pick up weights.

so I won’t put her on the chair tommorrow or my back would break.. every other day would be fine..

Damn.. it wasn’t this hard when i was working in a nursing home.. anyway , I get 5 hours break after lunch.. so i guess it’s fine.

Lord, please give me the Strength.. I know with your help everything will work out.

At the end of the day.. She said “ you’re alright”…made my heart sing.. i guess she liked the scrambled eggs with tomatoes I made for her dinner..

I will be positive these coming days and I know everyone is watching over me.. coincidentally, i’ve had 3 baby sitting jobs being offered to me but I couldn’t accept it since i’m occupied until the 22nd..

i’m grateful nevertheless..

still.. I need to promote my photography.. there were some inquiries but they didn’t confirm it they will hire me or not.