LS way

 Right now I just hate them...hate them because it made me want to fall inlove too.

To be honest, I do not really know how to fall inlove anymore. I think falling inlove requires two people feeling the same thing and if it's not mutual....it's just "unrequited love." Which I often write about in my Quora...Empowering young women or people alike to not fall for that.

We have to have a healthy self esteem to "walk away" from something that is not good for us. A guru once said, It's their loss that they don't like you back..but I say, it's just it..."they're not your person." so just leave it be.

Love stories deludes your mind with the notion that maybe you can fall inlove like that too...like in the movies..ha ha...maybe some did, those lucky few.

I just realized something..

I am learning a lot here in France. The lessons are tough..but I am learning. I told Mae last night what happened to the mean lady. I told her to just relax, stay calm and just don't say anything when someone is trying to intimidate or bully you. This is the first time I've encountered such an experience when someone was trying to egg me on to confront them. Most of the time anyway, I would just walk away. This time I let someone defend me,"an authority" so things wouldn't escalate.

Then another thing I've learned..I have no family here..so I really am on my own. I've been here almost 4 months and had not yet met some "true" friends...Time will tell I guess.

Then when it comes to relationships...I really am not ready. I still have that "play" mentality . lol..but I realized I shouldn't..if I really want someone to be in my life..I need to get to know them.really know all about them and not be impulsive...so right now, I'm avoiding that..I need to be careful. I do not want to have a broken heart here in Paris..so I'll just be single..voila" , proble'me r'esolu......I do not want to be embarassed anymore specially that I cant handle my wine...tee hee..:)...so no drinking even if it's just a teeny cup..pffttt....I can't stop thinking or wondering how did that happened? lol vraiment embarrassant.

I'll just revert to my old plan...take lots of photos everywhere and work on my book.

I wonder if I could really go back to Switzerland by the end of the year.