Security way

I think I am feeling secure now here in Paris. I believe I would last year for maybe another 5 years? It's just a feeling. Also I am glad that I am not overthinking anymore. I know things will work out..how I know...I have this teeny tiny voice whispering in my ear saying..I just need to hold on a bit longer. 

I still miss Dongie... I wonder how he is.

I dreamt of my mother the other night and I was so surprtised since I haven't thought of her for awhile. I actually woke up upset because she was in my dream. I wonder if I reconcile with these toxic people, would God give me a quick pass so I can leave already because I had learned to fully forgive? BUt how do you forgive if you knew something wrong will always happen with these kind of toxic people?

Anyway, it's a great day..Q sent me a photo of his counter that he fixed this morning..how interesting..It's a greatr thing because your place is your investment, might as well take good care of it.

Fine, I miss him...I wonder if he misses me too...I told myself I will try to not expect anymore. Let time take care of things..if God is okey with it then I am okey with it too. 

Back to work tommorrow...I miss Zoe and August and looks forwaard sweeing them everyday..