Aucune inspiration

I must be truly sad inside...and am ignoring it.

I lost my inspiration with my photography....I think just for the meantime. It's just disheartening, that I don't need my big expensive camera and lens in order to create a masterpiece. 😞 I just needed this iphone14 and it creates great photos. I am surprised. 

I want to be inspired, to create..something unique. Although I admit I'm glad I am getting known now for "landscapes"...I still love doing modeling/glamour photos..but I need models. I have been passive lately. I need to be more aggressive. I know the weather is not an excuse. I want to be out there making awesome photos.

I do miss the great Florida beach weather...my forte'.. 

It is true..we do not get our inspiration from outside us..it must come from the inside. I remember I used to hang around Flickr a lot and admired all those awesome photos of other photographers. I should do that again. 

I am hungry or thirsty for creativity.

I'm in Paris..one of the fashion cities of the world. I should find a great inspiration here.

I remember I when I was in New York..I had every opportunity to be a great photographer or videographer..because I sold cameras and video cameras before. Then my boss Stevie dates famous supermodels...I was too uninterested with those because I was more focused on being a mom. I wanted to have my own family since I lived alone in the city..I wanted to have kids that I could take care of and be my forever family......and that's what I did.

See...that's one of those...if it wasn't meant to be , it wont be.

I was just thinking of those crossroads in life...what if you did this, and didn't do th😅at....like...what if I went back home because I missed my one and only bf in my young life? Would I have stayed in the US for 35 years and met Dongie and had 3 wonderful kids?

Like, if I pursued being a physical theraphist..I wouldn't land in 4 Guys camera..

or If I had continued being a nursing assistant and really quit 4Guys cameras? Then I would not have met Dongie..

Life is just is..

Funny, I asked Mark Twain what would be a great comeback for these filipinas when they asked me, why I had to leave the US? I think he suggested.."Life is short"...I'm like...that would be great! I could just tell them..."life is short"...and we burst out laughing..yeah ,yeah..next thing you know , there would be gossips of you having cancer or dying..😆😅I know it's not funny..but it sounded funny to me..lol

Anyway..

I will just take Life one day at a time...can I say that too? hahaha

Ah Paris...what do you have in store for me?