Charismatic way

 Yesterday towards the end of the "bible study"...they had a guy come up ..and he said a mini sermon? I think then he started singing. When we were in the middle of all these songs, he started chanting prayers at the same time. Then it dawned on me, that this was like that charismatic groups thats went to my grandpa's house back in Banawe. I remember atttenting it once since I saw my grandpa in the front. It made me miss him a lot. Those were happy days of my childhood.

I told myself yesterday, I will not be emotional or "cry" during the service. I did not want to let people see my super sad. I wanted to be strong. I cry enough in this little room I am in. Crying out to God to please let things be ok, to let Dongie and my Dad be ok wherever they are. How I cry when I think that he left me behind and have no one to lean on. So now, I know I have to be more vigilant with my Faith in God and my guardian angels.

I was also thinking...

I kept reaching out to God ..so this is His way to tell me... He is always with me..so many people I see worship him.

Also, it was all new to me..these groups of filipinos in Paris..the speaker, talking straight tagalog..lol

I haven't seen that in the US for 35 years..they would usually just speak english. I wonder why they do that...speak straight tagalog and not utter any english words? maybe not everyone there is proficient in english? just like the Latino communities in MIami..they always talk straight spanish because not everybody understand English.

It was an interesting day...specially the "Lay over" for the Holy Spirit thing..I think...anyway..I dont want to be negative. they know what they are doing.

I really do hop I do not become "religious"..I used to be an avid born again..but then that group turn out to be a cult. So now, I wonder if this will be good..