Earful way

I got a lecture from my friend M..she said, "You're so stubborn that's why! You kept saying you're letting go but there you go again...Then she psychologized me...lol...She said you're after someone because you just lost someone and trying to fill that empty void.

I think I don't agree..

I believe it is just my naivety ..I never thought of people taking advantage of other people's loneliness. They will play with your feelings because they thought that is what you wanted...even if you said, "no" so many times. I thought it was passion...it was just that carnal desires that "guys" have. I have other theories, but I am not willing to hurt someone's feelings here in my blogs. So, I'll let it be.

I am glad of the "Honesty" , I truly appreciate it. I realized now, truly...people who laughs a lot had the deepest pain. Me, I just laugh a lot because I like to see the "humor" in everyday life..like my Dad used to do. He always made me laugh.

Spock....ok here I go again...ang kulet! 😋😂

Well like I told her...there are other people who will make me laugh and be genuine and sincere about it...then love me also in the interim. Whoever he will be...I am just here...waiting...I think...ha ha ha😋😏

I am still a very emotional person. How could Paris make me "tough" and "STrong" ..this is the city of LOve.. or maybe I am tough and strong already...I am just being a "brat".

Purposely, I know I am almost there...Dongie went ahead so..I think he is just waiting for me.

I do hope I can "inspire" my children to be a "fighter &survivor" like me.

Anyway...18 more days and I really want to reach my ideal weight by my birthday. 

As always this had been like tradition..losing weight...lol

10 pounds in 18 days...that will be my challenge...not the one about not texting the Ahole anymore..lol