Photo Existential crisis way

I am so glad that I talked to a fellow photographer.

I was having this photographic existential crisis. I was bothered that I didn't need my big fancy expensive camera to make a "masterpiece"...my iphone14 does it...somehow..

I had forgotten...and he reminded me that..It's not about the "gear" or whatever expensive cameras or lens you used. It's mostly.. "me" the photographer...the photographer's EYE..

I was losing interest and disheartened that I didn't need to do all the extra stuffs like studio lights and stuffs..maybe , yeah..there's a reason to use things..

If I wanted a great quality looking photo..then I could use my camera.

that's the difference now a days..

you can't tell when they used an smartphone or the professional camera.

Maybe some photographer's do have a lot of tricks up their sleeves.

Anyway, tonight...I am also sad..I need to walk away....for good..

no more self doubts... no more false hopes..

NO MORE DELUSIONS 

Life goes on..As always..if it's meant to be...it will be...and you had your red flags..you didnt listen..so SUFFER!@!! ha ha.. just kidding..lol

I am at peace..I will celebrate my first birthday here in Paris with people who "truly" cares for me.