the End way

I kept thinking..

Yesterday, when my shoulder hurt ..I wanted someone to hug me..to make my booboo feel better. So, I guess that is the price of singledom...ha ha..you don't get a hug from anybody...

 I put my arms up and thought that Dongie was there hugging me. I remember sometimes when something is bothering me, I would just go to his room and ask him if he's not too busy since he's always on the computer at home working for Mark, talking to him on the phone and stuffs... He would always say' no, I have time " then I would pour my angst to him and I'd ask his advice. Well...there's no more Dongie to approach to..I hope he can see me write these. I miss him a lot, because he was my real confidante and best friend only in this world...that's what a true "Soulmate" is..not romantic, but someone who will always be there for you ..thru thick and thin..not just someone who you would talk to once in a while..I think that would be called more of a "Kindred Spirit"

I am happy today that Ate J was happy the room was clean..I do not like clutter and mess ..so I do the best I can to make my surroundings liveable. If only I could decorate..but this is her place so I respect that she didn't like certain things done to her place. She lived here for tenyears I think. So she is so used to her stuffs..she knows where she put stuffs. 

I am always Grateful for her. I think it wasn't a happenstance that we met in Annecy to be roommates in the hotel back in 2021. We hit it off right away. She loves to talk and I just love to talk when someone is talking..lol

So today..11 am... to let go or not.. that is the question...and will be the answer.

I will try to be busy this November and explore more of Paris. I decided not to go to Barcelona but I'll try to travel more around France for the meantime. I wanted to go to Colmar for my birthday.

It's almpst 10:30am..Ill go to the lavarie around 12 pm or 1pm when it's not too cold outside then do my groceries later also.