No sleep way

So it's true..sleep deprivation can drive you nuts..

I couldn't sleep last night partly because of Spock and also starting a new job. I know it's an easy job..maybe it's harder to adjust now that we are older. I wasn't excited about the job because I know I would be caged in 6 days a week . The good thing about it is at least it ends at 6pm.

I was actually overwhelmed today by the girl who trained me. She really knows what she's doing and she's like handing me the torch. I wonder if I would ever stay in this job...for how long...

I miss my music too.. so I was singing while I was working.

It just pains me also to think that I've regress in life...starting again from the bottom..ughhh ,,,yeah sure in Paris... that too when will I stay here. it had been 5 months and Im anxious.

anyway...

I came home and started crying and feeling so homesick and alone again. 

I know I should be grateful and I am always grateful..it's just tough being human..