Drama queen way

My son called me "drama queen" today in his texts to me. 

I sent him my essay and now my poem. I told him, I'm a "poet"! hah!

 

Anyway, I had been busy putting down my thoughts. 

JV gave me an idea yesterday for a "story"...I will not divulge it here..but it's PWIP..😝😊

I'm impress with his thoughts...maybe because he is surrounded by filipinas there in Coral Reef. I remember him, he likes playing games. Just because he's the boss..but sana if he was younger and more handsome...he's smart enough, he has a nice car, great job ...but unfortunately...I wasn't interested to be with someone like that. I didn't want to be with an older guy anymore. I don't have daddy issues anymore. BUt I know him...he is just being friendly..I remember I had a meltdown after a few months when Dongie died and he was there to listen and gave his support even emotionally.

It is so strange lately..all these memories kept flooding back..all these people I've dealt with.

I am still toying with the idea of going back..ugh...I wanted to challenge myself to stay here for a year. JOsh said, I could always go back when I am more prepared. Prepared for what? 

Life is so strange, when you think of future stuffs..you think you have a long life ahead of you...but really, all you have is "now"...deal with now. Because the tommorrows came from "now".

I know I need to be "braver" , I still cry when I miss Dongie. Someone told me, oh, MD that I have to move forward ..forget the past and just deal with the coming future...because those memories had passed...

It's so funny how I can get along with guys mentality than a girl..lol