Funny kind of friend way

I just talked to M a moment ago, I asked her if she could help me read my ads in French. I could read it though sometimes when I use google translate. Maybe it's just an excuse so we can hang out together. She's been busy at work like I am.

Then I told her about this ..and she said, what I am precisely thinking. BUt I need to be stronger today. I do not want to do much since I am not feeling as well and I need my energy for next week's jobs..lol

It feels weird not to worry about anything, honestly. I had been like this ever since I was growing up abused. but that was long gone. Dongie had spoiled me in a sense that I ran the household and we really did get along at times despite him being an absent father in the beginning and I was a handling and juggling everything by myself. Maybe it was a challenge. Anyway I do not want to do that anymore when I do meet the "next" 😉😁 love of my life...whoever he is. I might spoil him a bit but I wanted  him to spoil me instead..maybe...well this phase of life is different. Plus I do not think I will last as old as my seventies.

I feel like I am going to live a not long life and I prefer that.

Today can be exciting unless I get myself "numb"...ahhh...games people play..

M is funny because she actually have the same humor like I do. She's younger than me, but I like her to think she's older..so she tries to give me advices...ha ha...that's ok..she is permitted to, if it makes her feel good that she thinks she's just looking after me..then I'm all for it. Besides she's the only one who knows my inner thoughts..I've become wary of trusting other people now. Which I was back in the states but here in Paris..I am starting to.

So hopefully tonight will be fun..maybe..lol