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 I was thinking back in Paris.. yes, it’s nice to take photos.. in my head.. just to show and share in social media that i was in Paris.. immersed in its culture….. But, at the same time, i was struggling inside..

what does this place do for me?

I can’t drive ( 7 months) so I can’t roam around and really enjoy the places.. I don’t want to wait for years to be able to have a car and drive there. 

I couldn’t get the job I wanted to do.. babysitting for a toddler.. it’s not who I am.. 

I wasn’t happy there because I was scared to find someone really special because I had the feeling I would leave any second because I wasn’t happy there.

I had missed the US more because it’s my Home.. my family is there and I didn’t have family in France.

I believe if Paris was for me.. I would have stayed there longer..