B is for Busy Bee

 Haven’t written here in forever it seemed.. i am still deciding if i do want these blogs to be read out there.. maybe be anon for the meantime still.

A whole lot had happened lately..

Good .. some very good.. but i think its like a out of conscience experience. I am happy but as always.. happiness is a hard concept for me.. im used to just existing to exist.. until

something really wonderful happens..

I do want to feel it while it’s happening.. 

but it just felt incredulous..

Let’s wait by the end of May if I  still feeling happy .. then it’s for real..